A friend asked if I manifested my relationship with my husband, Alex. I believe I did. Previous relationships and "situationships" left me confused and doubting myself. Those experiences helped me be clear about what I wanted to attract. I prayed for clarity about what I truly wanted so I could manifest it, and I asked God for discernment and the courage to walk away if it wasn't aligned.
Making friends isn't always easy, and finding or making friends with other couples might be even more challenging. Alex and I enjoy the camaraderie of other couples in love. Enjoying their company, along with sharing similar values, is important. It's nice when we have things in common with other couples and can relate to them.
Holding space for a partner, a friend or a family member means supporting the person emotionally. When someone is going through a tough time, holding space means being understanding and having empathy for their situation. It's about listening and validating their feelings.
As I wrote in an earlier blog entry, "Wedding Planning During a Pandemic," was challenging. With much uncertainty surrounding these times, I had to let go of expectations while still wanting to manifest the wedding of my dreams.
That was me after I got divorced a few years ago. That was an interesting transition period. I had this new found “freedom” and was also “finding myself.” In the midst of all that, I started online dating.
Within a few months, I encountered a plethora of characters… from Ghost Boy, Playa President, to Wannabe Boyfriend.
I thought Ghost Boy and I really hit it off. We had several dates. We had good conversations and we had fun together. Then, he had to “babysit” his son for two weeks. We didn’t see each other during that time, but we stayed in contact… that is until he stopped responding to my text messages. He disappeared and like a ghost was never to be seen or heard from again. He did me the biggest favor by ghosting me. Ghost Boy saved me the time and trouble by dumping himself for me.
About a month later, I met Playa President online. I was excited about going on our first date — that is until he texted me, “Are you looking for a hookup?” I was shocked. I was thinking… you need to at least buy me dinner first. But, seriously, I was taken aback by the question. I said if it’s what I think you mean, then no. I’m not. I asked him, “Is that what you’re looking for?” He responded, I’ve been single for two years, I’m not 100% sure what I’m looking for. Single? For two years? I can’t imagine why. We never met.
I met Wannabe Boyfriend at a match.com sponsored event. He wasn’t exactly my type, but I wanted to keep an open mind, so I agreed to go to dinner with him. We got along fine, but he was moving a little too fast. We had only been on one date and he was already acting like I was his girlfriend. He suggested I cook dinner for him at my place for our second date. He said he wanted a serious relationship ASAP. His words exactly! Maybe I should call him Ghost Boy because he scared me off.
May I offer advice on online dating? I know we all want to look good, but please DO NOT misrepresent yourself.
I recall a former coworker… I’ll call him Salesman Bob. Salesman Bob’s profile came up as a potential match. Had I not worked with him, I would not have known that all his pictures were at least 10 years old. His online persona was a much younger and more attractive version than his current self. In real life, he had gray hair and was 30 pounds heavier.
That’s just false advertising! There are things you can’t (or shouldn’t) lie about like age, weight and height. If you do get a date, at some point, you’re going to get found out. And it’s very unlikely you’ll get a second date. Nobody likes bait and switch. What are people thinking? Yeah, don’t do that.
One other piece of advice… When you are on a date, be present. Offer your full attention to the person you’re with. That means NOT turning your head to check out another woman while we’re having a conversation. Yep, that happened to me. #truestory
After meeting several more characters… I decided to take a break from dating altogether. Instead, I focused on self-love and self-care.
I was looking for love in all the wrong places because I was looking outside of myself. Once I learned to truly love and value myself, everything else started falling into place. I learned to be true to myself and I started making different choices.
I’m grateful for having met all these delightful characters because they made me realize what I did NOT want in a relationship.
Had I not encountered Ghost Boy, Playa President or Wannabe, I may not have found love within myself. And, had I not found love within, I may not have found love with my current partner… my leading man… who by the way, is now my fiancé.